Get Help.

Hello brothers and sisters,Tonight is the night I go away. I first got into streetwear the same as any other person. I felt I was depressed and had low self esteem and so I made it my life’s goal to lose weight and dress better. I’m 6’0 200lbs and dressing better and working out made me feel better. Temporarily. Everything else was still there the only difference is that I am now depressed in $300 shoes. To fill the empty feeling inside I continue to buy more and more things. To the point where my ex girlfriend would scold me for buying clothing I already had. Can you believe I bought 7 different grey shirts? All plain. All varying in prices. However, I convinced myself that it’s what I needed for an outfit. “I need pants” I would say. “You have plenty of pants you haven’t worn yet.” She would retort. When she confronted me on why I felt the need to purchase all these items I would tell her it’s because it felt good to look good. “Who are you trying to impress?” That was a good question. I never even take photos of my outfits. I wore them for me. I wore them because I thought it would clear my mind from all the depressing bullshit I thought. Fast forward and she leaves me ( for other reasons ).This was a few months ago. At the moment it didn’t affect me. Until I realized I was buying more and more bullshit I didn’t need. For the last couple of weeks, I’ve been sinking further and further into the void. All the shit I’ve purchased doesn’t wipe away the pain. It barely suppresses it. I can’t take it anymore, my friends. Get help. Let me be the lesson. Looking good is fine, but not when you do it as an alternative to forget about your issues. Get help. I’m sorry to all. Goodnight. Goodbye. via /r/streetwear http://ift.tt/2zlerFh